Suck it up

HELLO. my mom's on a TERRIBLE mood swing now. I'm tired of her scoldings! Ever since yesterday..and she just told me that when i grow up i'm gonna suffer what rubbish. Irritating. She's scolding the whole house and nothing can seem to stop her, the worst, i can't tell anyone cause she's at home what!
WTH. the simple things i do somehow can make her angry.

And btw, MY NEW MAID IS HERE! No more Sri, i guess i'll sort of miss her, but nevermind, i printed pictures for her before she left already :) My new maid doesn't know english! And she's a little blurry too. I feel sorry for her, it's only her second day and she already got so many scoldings from my mom cause she's on mood swing, it's not a great start for her so i hope that she won't be too affected by it. Like yeah, i'll pray for her, that things will get better even though i didn't start off good :)
and by little acts of love together with my siblings, she'll start to feel more welcomed into our home and she'll find something happy here :D
i bet she must be thinking right now, "my employer is so fierce, i better not make mistakes and be more careful, if not i won't have good days ahead."
I want to tell her that things will be okay, but really, how would i know.

yeah enough of that.
you know, i feel like going shopping again, even though i just met up with pearl, but idk. I feel that it can make me happier :) after all my mom's scoldings. She asked me to clear my books on my table by tmr and pack my luggage my tmr too. And she says that she'll write us some computer schedule what rubbish. UGHHH I CAN'T TAKE IT! IT'S SOOOO ANNOYING! P.M.S ISN'T EVERYTHING YOU KNOW!
ughh i don't care, can't wait for yimi to come home, can play again :D i wanna watch alice in wonderland :) HAHA.

okayokay, BYEBYE!
-soophhhiiiiiaaaaa

One day, i'll find you destiny

HELLLOOOO. Watched Prince Of Persia today, just came back only eh! HAHA.
Late night movie..haha, it was damn nice :D Totally loved it, but it was a waste, haha you'll find out why when you watch.

i'm so tired. didn't go to sentosa in the end. But i watched an awesome movie! :D
yeah okay, it's late. I soooo got to go. And i hate pearl for introducing me to the dumb jewel game, i got damn addicted and when i close my eyes i see all the jewels and it's damn annoying.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. well okay then.

bye!!
-Sophia

Go forth and center, steal the spotlight

HIHIHIHI.
OMG. i'm so bored. haha, but i dont want to do homework. Should i do? aiya i will do abit wan lah.
HAHA. i'm fussing over whether i should do reader's digest, it seems to be the first thing everyone is doing eh. But i finished 2 book reviews already..not hard. I think i'll finish all my book reviews first :)
you know, i slept really really long just now..HAHA. and i'm eating pizzzzzzaaa later! :D
i can't wait! LOL. like that also can't wait, whatevurrr.

okay, i really need to do my holiday homework!
it's like the beginning of the holidays but i need to finish it! (although i know it's IMPOSSIBLE)
i just do what i can lah :)
i'm flying on friday already :D

i shall go now. OMG WHERE IS THAT PIZZA.
-sophialoo

patrolling the lights of our bright city

went out with pearl today:

omg i went to paint my nails tmr got band eh.

bunch of unglams!

haha she's not very glam too!

didn't take alot of pics..but i had fun :)

i bought alot of stuf..okay not that alot but it seemed like alot to me! :D hahahahaha.

firstly she went to my house first, then went to orchard to eat lunch with my family first, then went to ion and went to shop on our own :)

HADDD FUNNNN :DD

too bad i won't be able to go out with anyone after this i think..since i have to chiong homework before i go on holiday. and after i come back will be like almost the last week of school already :(

sad.

haha, i better ask my friends out and plan with them first. If i can :D can't wait to go to amsterdam! :D hahahahha im leavin on 4th june already :) Now's like already 28th may eh.

sian diao. okayokay, i started packing some stuff today and i got my souveneir list ready for all my friends! :D

HAHAHAHAHA. REALLY REALLY CAN'T WAIT :D

btw, YIMI'S BACK!!!! YAYYYY!!! BUT SHE WENT OUT AGAIN! lol. haha glad she's back, i got someone else to play with! :D

hahahaha kay then, i think i should go now.. :) i haven't bathe yet!!!

SEEEEYAAAA.

-sophiatheawesomest

Start it anew

HIHI FANTASIA WAS GOOD :) but we were late so i didn't get to see band!! It's damn irritating i was like wth. i only saw jiayi at the end when they announce all the instructors then she came out to present to flowers to Mr Ong.

LOLS. WHATEVER. HAHA. btw, Yimi is coming back tomorrow morning!! :D YAY! :D
can't wait, i'm gonna watch some discs to buy time, HAHA. and i wanna go out with pearl tmr, but yeah she still haven ask her mom. LOL, aiya dont care lah, she better go, if not i'll be damn bored. It's like a public holiday tmr :) so yeah. KK.
oh and nicole reminded ytd not to pon band on tuesday, hahaha. I won't lah, cause thursday i'm flying off already eh :( / :D
YAY! :D CAN'T WAIT FOR EVERYTHING. i'm in a pretty good mood now :)
and i'm happy that i'm starting to forget about my dammit shit worthy results :(

alrighties then :D
BYEBYE.
-SOPHIA

Each of us has the power to give life meaning

CROSS COUNTRY DAY.
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF :D 2.4 i ran like 16 mins and now 3km i ran 17 mins! :D
damn awesome. i know it's not that fast but, yeah. I LOVED IT! :D
ran with grace like throughout, omg i was like gonna die already. HAHA.. i think the only time we really stopped was at the water break there. Other than that i confess i stopped abit, HAHA.

OMG, you know that 1st placing girl is sooooo freaky!!! she ran like 10mins!! it's like the time you take to play chopsticks or something!! But congrats to her, she's like 1st in out level and 1st in the school, Damn scary seriously.

haha well okay, tonight i'm watching FANTASIA!!! :D incase you don't know, it's a concert by RGPS? I miss the time when IIII was performing fantasia :( with like pearl and all.
oh nvm, here's a time to relieve those memories :)

BYEBYE.
-SOPHIA LOO

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SCHOOOL'S FREAKINGGG OUT!!!! :DD
I AM DETERMINED TO FINISH HOLIDAY HOMEWORK AND HAVE FUNNNN!!! :D
I WILL WORK HARD :D

my life takes a turn, can you stop it?

SHITTY GRADES AND ALMOST THE WORST CLASS POISITION YOU COULD EVER GET.

MY LIFE IS OVER.

I'M NOT HAHA-ING. I'M SERIOUS. I TOTALLY SUCK COMPARED TO MY NORMAL STANDARS AND I HAVE NO IDEA.

I KNOW I DON'T DO WELL. I DON'T REALLY HAVE MUCH EXPECTATIONS BUT THIS IS TOO MUCH. I DON'T NEED A GOOD. JUST AN OKAY, OR A NOT SO BAD. BUT THIS, THIS IS TRAGICAL, THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE FOR IT.

I'M DONE FOR.

I WORKED HARD, AND THIS IS WHAT I GET. DON'T TELL ME I DIDN'T WORK HARD ENOUGH, THEN HOW COME I DID BETTER WHEN I NEVER STUDIED THE PAST 13 YEARS OF MY LIFE. TELL ME.

THE TRUTH IS, IT CAN'T BE EXPLAINED. HOW UNFAIR LIFE IS, THINGS JUST HAPPEN WHEN THEY WANT TO, WITHOUT VALID REASONS AND WITHOUT ANYTHING.
I HATE YOU LIFE. YOU'RE A CHEATER WHEN YOU TOLD ME THAT AS LONG AS I STUDY, I'LL DO WELL. WHAT IS THIS. THIS IS NOT A NIGHTMARE, NIGHTMARES AREN'T REAL, THIS IS REALITY. DON'T TELL ME TO FACE IT, IT'S THE ONE SLAPPING ME IN THE FACE.


SOPHIA.

You spin me right round baby right round

HEYHEY.
TODAY, was okay lah. Since we didn't have to get back any grieving results :) and that danish dance with reginny and grace was really funny and stupid, HAHA. I HAD FUN THEN!
And there was band too. But only rachel, joey and me. HAHA, but of course not forgetting natasha and cassandra! :D it was quite okay lah, it felt weird without shanny theyall, but it was still okay with my awesome seniors :) Drills were sucky, damn tired and ambre is soo strict! Lucky chng, jo and i are pro! oh man, after the fluteys all go on their trips right..i'll be left alone. Shanny, Ze hui and Sang ah to japan. Ting and joey to batam cip trip. Nicole, most likely insomnia or something. And obviously sherry, natasha and cassandra, O LEVELS AND N LEVELS, the graduating batch, even though cass will come back.

BUT STILL! I'LL BE LEFT ALONE :( WHOLE FLUTE SECTION ONLY ME, WTH.
haha okayokay, i shall forget about that now.
I REALLY WANNA GO OUT BEFORE I LEAVE THE COUNTRY. Quickly call those friends!!! and i tried doing some holiday homework alr :) YAYS! :D
report book tmr, screw it, it's gonna suck alot alot.

BYEBYE :D
-screwed girlie

Great disppointment doesn't need to lie deep inside, it's right here. And it's killing me.

SHOULD I WATCH TEEVEE? ONCE I WATCH I WILL WATCH 2 HOURS EH. IS IT A GOOD CHOICE TO SLEEP AT 1? NAHH NOT SO GOOD XD

i want school to end quickly. just 3 more damn days. but they seem long and painful and unbearable. Wednesday we get back our report books and it's parents meet session and the streming talk rubbish. Thursday is stupid cross country, i dont want eh. I will walk the whole thing lah please.
That means i'm only okay with tmr, cause got band :) but even though ze hui, shanny and sang ah won't be there, i'll still practice hard! :D Don't want to fall behind once i'm on my longlong holiday right?? :D i'm looking forward to my holidays. but really, my horrible exam results totally killed me inside. CRAP. I need to quickly finish my holiday homework before i go on holiday!!! If not right, when i come back i have to rush it through. Well that's no good xD HAHA, I JUST FINISHED MY 50 EXPRESSIONS! And holidays haven't even started! :D but i shouldn't feel proud yet, MUST KEEP IT UP :D

haha okay then. BUH-BYE. maybe i'll watch my tape after all, i'll stop when i need to :) if not, i won't stop..HAHA. hope you did well for MYEs :)
-NOMORELAZYGIRL

The Gem Of Life

there's my new shiny flutey :) haha i'm addicted to it, love playing it! :D

okay, that's for the happy stuff. i got back ALL my results already. I felt like dying, i did badly for like everything, everything fifty plus. I'M SERIOUS. My languages are the ones that are not so bad, but they are not good either. SUCKS.

Now you REALLY have no idea how i feel, i was like going to cry again today, tearing already leh. You know, some people are good at certain subkects and bad at some. Like some people are math geeks but hate languages, some like HISTORY. Some peeps wanna be chefs, and somehow rock at home econs. Some people from china come to singapore and own chinese class but suck at english. So people are really pro at english, but detest chinese. ME? I suck at everything, and there's nothing i'm pro at. So basically this is what you call good for NOTHING. Try it, maybe you'll consider committing suicide.

yeah okay. i'm done, no really, this is the END of my mid years. I SUCK, OKAY? THIS IS MY CONCLUSION. and next year, i'll pick back up from where i started, i'll study all over again on new topics, i wanna do well. I didn't, but if i study more than i did, i might. I can't stop feeling troubled over my exams, i still rmb i said that good results would be my holidays even more blissful, but there's no good results now, only plops of shit. So yeah. I'll still try to have lots of fun on my trip to Paris :) To place i always wanted to go to :) YAY! :D

HAHA ALRIGHTIES. I'M GONNA GO, I'M WATCHING MY TAPE! :D
i love this song, it's a show i watched before, but i love it so i rented it to watch again :)
so byebye then.
-SOPHIAAALOOOO

sparkles and glitter and endless fun :D

i'm cutting down on pics cus they are slow, maybe cus it's 12am going on 1.

ENOJY :D

HUGE PHONE :)

this is us doing all sorts of nonsense with their sample phone

if i had time to put up more pics, i would have more proof that grace is a noob photographer.

OKAY,
had quite a great day :) and a really tiring one. went out with grace first and did all sorts of nonsense, haha, but we had FUN :D and she took her first set of neoprints in life. HAHA, omg that sounded seriously impossible, but nvm, LOL.


yeah after that i went home, then went back out to great world city to watch shrek forever after :) it's a really funny and fairytale show, really nice :D HAHA, LOVED IT.
and so in conclusion, it's band, out with grace and one awesome movie :D
haha i'm reallyreally sleepy now, but here i am to blog :)

aside these happy stuff, i found out something really heartbreaking inside my personal life. And not just now, i already started suspecting this years ago, at primary school, but i kept them hidden and forgotten cause i thought i got it wrong. But it's now true, i thought these things only happened in dramas, like broken marriages or illegitamate children but well, that's not the case, stuff like these happen in life too. And it's something we have to learn to accept, but i know it can't be avoided forever, maybe next time when i grow older i'll face it t together with my siblings as bravely as we can :) well, you don't wanna know, don't bother guessing either. It's beyond your texkbooks, and beyond what i can absorb :(

but i won't end this post with a sad face. here's a smiley :)
i'll ignore the last paragraph, trust me, if you were me, you wouldn't know what to say or what to do.
-sophia :D

be aware of what is before, present and what will be after

HEYYY. HAD BAND JUST NOW. FINALLY SHANNY, ZE HUI AND SANG AH CAME!! HAHA, OH AND IM MEETING UP WITH GRACEYY SOON :D
omg i have totally no idea what to wear. just dumped on some shirt and slipped in a pair of shorts because everything else seemed weird and didn't look good. And i didn't want wear to same things again, AHH there was too much to consider, so just wore some crap. WHATEVER, UGHH.

haha okay, I HAVE A NEW FLUTE!!! :D YAY!
it's soooo shiny!! I LOVE IT, and so happy to have it. even though it's open hole and it's hard to play, but i'll get used to it :) Flight Of The Piasa is nice :D
and i hate running notes, fullstop. i only love them when somehow they're nice to me :D
HAHAHAHA.

okie then, i'm gonna play my flute awhile before i leave the house. BYEBYE :D
-SO-FIEE-YAHH, not

It's all good.

no actually, it's not all good :(
i got back some of my results today, home econs, maths and ih, SUCKED. NO, SUCKED TO THE CORE. OMG. I was like super duper crazily depressed. I got really low for everything.
and oh, i failed __ :(
i was like tearing, it was totally crap, just one more mark to a pass. I felt like kiling myself on the spot. You have completely no idea how depressed i was. ohmygoodness. So yeah, i don't know, i just really felt horrible, i still do. Cause it's not like i didn't study, i really did, anyone who reads my blog can prove it, and i really tried to write longer and attempt everything well, and to write good answers. THIS IS DAMN ANNOYING. I studied but somehow, i did so much worse than last year, i thought all the studying would really help me :( but i still suck, really bad. i know it's not like the end or anything, but really, if i didn't study and i failed, i won't feel that bad, i'll just be sad, now it's not only the sadness, it's utter disappointment.
Now i know why people say it sucks when you've tried your best but it's just not good enough. It really sucks.
I have to just pray for the following papers to come out, not to pray that there will be a drastic increase in my marks, but to pray that i'll face it properly, and listen to the corrections, not sit there and ignore the world and cry. If you did badly, that's why you should learn from your mistakes.

yup, okay, i know i'm still very upset. But i shall try my best to be HAPPY! :D
yes i shall! i must jy okay, i will work harder :) i think, if i pray. I can go through this :D oh btw, i'm meeting up with grace tmr! :D and sleeping over at her house! damn awesome, can't wait :)

haha yup, cya then. no cca today, so yeah i'm slacking now.
-SOPHIA :D

it looked mysterious and amazing

COOL SONG. Have yet to unwrap regine's many layered present, HAHA. My mom says maybe i could go shopping with her, she says lots of new clothes in town. HMM. SHOULD I? IDK. Another lame day in school, only the second and it sucked so badly, SAVE ME.

LTR PEOPLE.

-SOPHIA

The Perfect Stalker.

HEYYY.
FINALLY! SAW ALLL THE FLUTEYS YTD :D at the nanyang concert, it was really good and awesome, wow i have to say, Rachel Ho is super duper pro! HAHA, but not forgetting, i bet Joey is just as pro too! :D
KAYS, finally had band today!!! :D I was so excited at first, like when i first held on to my instrument and all, but then it all got so boring. Only Joey and I today :( And joey's like the sc now so she's alwasy away tool. As if the day in school wasn't sucky enough. OMG.
Well, it's not that AWESOME, but it's a great start :) Flight Of The Piasa is tough, i better practice like crazy before i leave on holiday :)

The whole school time sucked. So lame. OMG. I don't get why they can't return us our papers?!
Seriously, after so many days, they haven't marked finish, and there are sooo many teachers, and so many days. INEFFICIENT BUNCH. CAN'T BE BLAMED I GUESS. HAHA.
Well i have something important to say now:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAIYIMA AND MAISIE!! :D

yeah my aunty and maisie :)

awesome, i just came back from my aunt's birthday dinner, it rocked hard. I LOVE THE FISH!!! :D haha, well okay, it was great but now's kinda late. UGHH, i feel like pon-ing school or smth, we're not gonna do anything important anyways, so why bother. It's like i have so many tape to watch but for some stupid reason i can't finish them! HELP!!!

I'M ANNOYED.

well wdv, i have nth to say. No really xD

CYA.

-SPHIAALOO.

don't fake it, you just ain't that popular

SEE YOU TONIGHT FLUTEYS :D

going to the nanyang concert with them ltr. FINALLY! :D get to see them all :D

welll okay, i think mummy's gonna bring me to find a new pair of specs, like in the afternoon.

OMG, i can't wait to change it and get a really nice new pair of specs! I already know what kind i want :) No circular shape, those are gross, i want rectangular, and must have frame, black or dark blue, so it looks smarter and not so douche :D

haha okay i'm done here, might post tonight for a little while, cause it's back to school tmr :(

I DON'T WANT MY HORRIBLE RESULTS!!!

CYA.

-SOPHIAAAAAAAAAA, ily flute section! :D

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ANYONE NEED 3 TICKETS FOR THE NANYANG CONCERT TONIGHT?

we have extra. They are $10 and the concert in at woodlands. Anyone needs them can tell any of the flute section! HELP! WE NEED TO SELL THEM! PLEASE, IF YOU CAN, GO!

I'M GONNA SAVE THE WORLD

HEYALL. I KNOW I DIDN'T POST FOR LIKE 2 DAYS. so kay, here's my longlong post :)
from 14may-16may, 13 may i talked about it alr :) so yeah, and i skipped loads of photos, cus it'll be crazy to upload like 100 over photos here, they'll be on fb, day by day :)

KAY, HERE GOES :)

MAY 14TH

Sentosa-Universal Studios

w/ my awesome family!! :D

stupid ride that got us soooo wet.

but we went to play and get even more wet anyways :)

and this was my birthday dinner! :D

i LOVE this pic :D

outside our hotel room

it has a double decker! kay not double decker, but like an upstairs..haha

cooool right?

Summary: i had alot of funn :) it was the first time min went to universal studios :) and we all got super duper wet!! haha it was soooo much fun. Wait, there was something negative..my specs broke, AGAIN, OMG. haha so i had to wait for herman koko to bring my old specs over during dinner, and i was blind before that, HAHA. Speaking of dinner, it was AWESOME. Had italian food and mummy kept taking pictures! :D really nice food seriously, and our hotel room was like BOOMZ, sooo cool! HAHA, i never saw such a cool hotel room! :D Overall, IT ROCKED. A FABULOUS BIRTHDAY! :D

15TH MAY

Universal Studios/Vivo

w/ pearl, sotong, anneka, hoi ting, yuan ru :D

pics of the place before we left :)

we went to universal studios just to sit one ride..haha

ULTRA VIOLET ROOM THAT TURNS ANYTHING WHITE TO BECOM LUMINOUS! :D

then daddy drove me and min to vivo, both of us were meeting our friends :)

ate sashimi!!! at sushi tei :)

they surprised me with this really nice cake..haha though it was melting..

the wind was too strong so we had to light and blow one candle at a time..haha

:(

then we had to throw the cake away cus we had a movie to catch and it'll spoil!

byebye cake :(

after the movie:

HOI TING'S COOKIES!!! :D

while waiting for the goondoo yuan ru

HAHAS..

actually it looks exactly like the previous one..the face. HAHA.

LOL. it was a one second thing

ahhh hoi ting ain't here! :(

while waiting for the long queue at marche..

Summary: really good as well :) somehow it wasn't what i expected but it was cool :D And i really didn't expect Pearl and sotong to fake that pearl needed to shit and then they bought me a birthday cake..HAHA. I really loved that! Seriously, and i was so sad that it had to be thrown away :( But nevertheless, i'm so thankful to them. Watched the back-up plan, it was really funny and crazy, haha, i bet sotong enjoyed all the AHEM parts...Anneka came late cus she had tuition, and sotong had to wait for her! HAHA! Oh, and yuan ru came UN-appreciative late. And hoi ting left before that, so we didn't get to take a full group photo :( And i really really appreciate them queuing up at marche for dinner, despite the long queue, haha cus they knew i really wanted to have dinner there :) And i love my parents who paid for everything! Like seriously, they paid for ALL the cards! They're great and it was just so awesome! :D

16TH MAY

Sentosa

w/ min and all..

sat the luge!

yup this is it.

then went swimming :)

haha sylvie and min mastered this

yeah that's it! :D

Summary: Sat the luge, it rocked, i zoomed ahead :) Learnt it from min, haha. and Brendan kept crashing and crashing it was soooooo funny! HAHA. Then we went swimming too, we attempted to let sylvie and dandan stand on our shoulders, it was just sooo tickilish! HAHA. And we didn't fail at it kay, haha, sylvie and min really got the hang of it. But loads of pics of that are in mummy's iPHONE, including our splash shots! :D I had lots of fun too, but was totally worn out. HAHA. I love the slide there btw :D And yeah, i felt dehydrater after it all. But hey, it was way too worth it :)

I had alot of fun these few days..after the exams and all. It can't be just summed up in a few sentences, there's alot more to that :) What a wonderful time, and definitely one to remember, it was a great birthday for me, I LOVED IT :D Thanks so much to everyone who made my birthday sooo special! By that i mean those who wished me too :) even if it's on fb, it meant quite a lot :D

It's back to school this tuesday, and i don't want my results back!!! Seriously, just show me the end report, idc the others!! Ahhhh. I can't wait for the holidays! And especially for yimi to come back to singapore! Miss her sooo much! :D YAY-EE!!! :D i love all that's happening right now, but before i know it, it'll clearly be over. So fast and it's going to be half a year. I feels like it's only march or something, 2010 is definitely moving fast. And it's speeding ahead in fact. I don't want every year to be like this! :( I want time to slow down..and i want to take time to love it, and cherish it :(

i gtg now :) the album-MAY 16 :D is already up on fb :) check it out! :D
-SOPHIA, BIRTHDAY GIRLIE :D