Strut down these streets

Hello, i felt horribly empty without having to stay back for band.
I didnt even know there was no band, i brought my band file to school! xD HAIX. I miss band. Saw Sherry today during reccess, she just finished her 2.4km, ahhh i wanted to cry. Btw, i did my 5 stations today, all but Sit and reach, the only one i can do well. :( OMG. SO SAD. HAHA. i suck at all the other 4 stations, sit-ups, pull-ups, standing broad jump and shuttle run :( SIAN DIAO.

okay, im watching a new show after my other show ended. It's not that good. DUHHHH.
Tmr, is wednesday. FINALLY, i can go for dance! I haven't been going for hip hop in like 2,3 weeks alr :( Shanice too, it's cus of all my performances. Well, i still am really downcasted cus of band and all my seniors. I can't get over it, but i dont really wish too..they'll be graduating :( I can't imagine band practices without them. Natasha, Sherry, why must you guys be so awesome? :( Haix.

I'M SO SAD.

OKAY. I've been trying to drift apart from ahem and ahem recently. Because i really dont like how they always walk off without me. I'm starting to notice, maybe they're not the right bunch of friends for me. Do this and that without me, i don't see a reason why i must hang around with them all the time when they always heck me. I know they've known each other for a really really long time. But i can't help but feel i'm some follower. Would they guess that one day i may not catch up with them for reccess..i may not turn around for group work all the time and say "eh, we do together kay." I just dont feel i'm important to them as a friend. It's always about their issues, their life, their everything. Every convo is related to them. They're in the middle, she's in the middle. I'm sick, "okay, get well soon ah" like that and oh its back to them. And actually, i think ahem is okay, you guys hate her, but too bad, i think she's perfectly fine. Always so emo, always so angry, so pissed, so emotional, it's hard to get along. It really wasn't what i had in mind :( I'm not angry or anything, i'm not gonna throw thantrums, i'm ju disppointed. But i don't intend to break ties with you. You know you always ignore me, but you don't think you're wrong or you dont feel bad or anything. For you it's just like, "HAHA, sorry lorh" But it impacted me so much. It's okay, i've been used to this since this whole year, i still love you guys. Sorry kay, if i'm been avoiding you somehow, and hanging out with other people. Not like it really makes a difference to you.You can get on with your awesome lives without me. Worry about your issues again. Like you said yourself, "Who cares?" No one cares. But maybe, I shall start finding people who do :)

cya then :)
-SOPHIA.