distance

hey all, i'm changing my bloggin style for this post a little, so yeah.
well, i realised that many a time, we can't control our own routes and ambitions. The day I received my subject options form was the day i realised that i have no idea wth i'm going to be doing with my life. Today we sent herman koko off to London, he's going to be studying there for the next 9 months. When i saw min started to cry, i felt like damn sad. And I was aware that, she had just lost her last '"playmate" at home, and all that's left in her big house of hers is her and her stepfather. Whereas her two brothers and mom went overseas. I started to cry too. Well duh, i'm extremely vulnerable when it comes to tears. So i left the airport for home and it's like "OMG, i miss herman koko"

I miss my primary school days all of a sudden. I know i kept this blog for a long time, but i'm wondering, what if i started it a couple of months earlier? Then i can look back at more posts when i missed my primary school days. I only started this blog in october 2008, when i was already preparing to depart for secondary school. I really wish i could have blogged down more than what i have, before i started my year in st margs.

Now i've fallen back from homework like my ATT and stuff but well i can't help it. Now i'm preparing for exams and streaming. But i'll look back at these days years later and find that there's nothing to be afraid of, not when you've lived on your own overseas and when you set off for your first day of work. I'm wondering what those days are going to be like, but maybe, when they really do come, i won't enjoy them. Well you'll never know. The distance seems long but in fact, life is way too short to enable you to discover your purpose and your actual wants. This means that you have to cherish whatever you have, without telling yourself to wait for the best to come because this very moment right now could already be the best, and you wouldn't know how much better or how much worse it could get.

-SOPHIA