you can end now exams

HELLO. chinese exam today was today, i feel a little bit screwed, just a little bit. But nvm, it's over and i told myself that after every exam i shall not think about it so much, HAHAHAHA :D SO tmr it's english i dont really know how to study for it, idk why. HAHA, I mainyl dont want to study, though now's a really bad time to feel like playing, i feel like going on holiday now.

oh no, i feel like i'm gonna do badly again. but today kinda relieved me since the exams was rather easy actually. I'm afraid it's just my wishful thinking, that in actual fact, i'm gonna do badly, AGAIN. BUT SEE, here i go again being all negative. I feel so sian diao.

enough of exams, i hate talking about it. stresses me out like crap. WHATEVER. BYE
-SOPHIAAAA

just 3 more days

MAD BROTHER ON THE LOOSE! HAHA THIS WAS TAKEN TODAY, SUPPOSEDLY FOR OUR HOME ECONS ADVERTISEMENT VIDEO.

NOOB SIBLINGS TRYING TO EARN A LIVING OFF THE STREETS :D

therapy

HELLO, I STAYED OVER AT MY AUNTIE'S HOUSE LAST NIGHT.
i think i need to attend a counselling session, i'm not studying and exams are in a few days. It's like that, when i need to study, i don't. When i don't need to study, well i still don't. So does that mean something's wrong with me?

LOOK,

i haven't been putting in any effort in things and it's bothering me. Like the dumb mug design i just completed, one word, -disgusting. It's so ugly! I think i'm gonna start having psychological issues. What if i can't get into 3/4 next year?

To me, if i don't, it's like all of sudden i won't know what to do, because i've only pictured myself going to that class and no others. And it's like THANKS ALOT GOD, I'M SO SCREWED. But no, times like this are when we must stay positive, it's not like i haven't heard that before, but how can i really apply it?

That's why we have God and the church. To help us, to advice us not only in times of need but in all times. So jym today was fun because we played games for the full hour of cell time, but what do i really learn? IT'S BOTHERING ME, SEE? SO MANY THINGS ARE BOTHERING ME.

SEE YOU IN SCHOOL ALL.
-sophia

distance

hey all, i'm changing my bloggin style for this post a little, so yeah.
well, i realised that many a time, we can't control our own routes and ambitions. The day I received my subject options form was the day i realised that i have no idea wth i'm going to be doing with my life. Today we sent herman koko off to London, he's going to be studying there for the next 9 months. When i saw min started to cry, i felt like damn sad. And I was aware that, she had just lost her last '"playmate" at home, and all that's left in her big house of hers is her and her stepfather. Whereas her two brothers and mom went overseas. I started to cry too. Well duh, i'm extremely vulnerable when it comes to tears. So i left the airport for home and it's like "OMG, i miss herman koko"

I miss my primary school days all of a sudden. I know i kept this blog for a long time, but i'm wondering, what if i started it a couple of months earlier? Then i can look back at more posts when i missed my primary school days. I only started this blog in october 2008, when i was already preparing to depart for secondary school. I really wish i could have blogged down more than what i have, before i started my year in st margs.

Now i've fallen back from homework like my ATT and stuff but well i can't help it. Now i'm preparing for exams and streaming. But i'll look back at these days years later and find that there's nothing to be afraid of, not when you've lived on your own overseas and when you set off for your first day of work. I'm wondering what those days are going to be like, but maybe, when they really do come, i won't enjoy them. Well you'll never know. The distance seems long but in fact, life is way too short to enable you to discover your purpose and your actual wants. This means that you have to cherish whatever you have, without telling yourself to wait for the best to come because this very moment right now could already be the best, and you wouldn't know how much better or how much worse it could get.

-SOPHIA

just another day

HAPPY MID AUTUMN'S FESTIVAL! :D haha did everyone observe the pretty round moon today? :)

haha okay there's science test tmr! omg so many things to do this week and next week! I feel so stressed out and i'm damn nervous about exams (well, who isn't) so yeah. I better pray hard, WATCHING TAPE NOW :D though it's kinda late but yeah WHATEVER.

okay this is another short post :) BYEEEEEE

-SOPHIA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFFI! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFFI! :D

i've known you since sec 1, you're a great girl whose extremely talkative, fun and weird!! HOPE YOU'LL HAVE AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY! :D study hard smarty pants, get into an awesome class next year :) we MUST go out after exams, JIAYOU, ALL THE BEST, GOD BLESS! LOVE YA :D

-SOPHIA

a date with math

ENOUGH OF THIS SOPHIA, YOU'VE GOTTA STUDY

i hate it that i haven't been studying, and today i just wrapped up everything. I better jiayou cause i totally suck at doing homework! And i probably won't be blogging so often too. GOOD LUCK ON THAT.

-sophia

retrieve the moments

Lantern festival at RGPS today :) It was okay lah.

HAHA I HAVE TO SHARE THIS! I WROTE A POEM IN MY PRIMARY SCHOOL DAYS, it's on my sister's LEAD BLOG, i posted it on her account, i saw it again today i was laughing like siao, haha i can't belive i wrote this!

: NEW YEAR
Hi all, it's chinese new year!
Let's give cheers loud and clear.
Receive money through and wide,
but have your family by your side.
Go visiting, eat dinner,
play games, and be the winner!
Gamble, but don't gamble to hard.
If not, the situation gets as sticky as in the mud!
It's the year of the rat, let's celebrate!
Rats start nibbling, erm... aint that great?
OK, maybe not as great as I said.
But still, play and get paid!
Happy new year, to all chinese!
As for those who are not,
take pictures and maybe say cheese!
Hope you like this little poem,
though it's not as magical as a magician.
LOL.

haha that was it, lame right? oh well, MEMORIES :) I'm damn guilty i didn't study today but i have a very good reason for it. Anyway it's personal so yeah. I shall go now, i didn't go for tuition today either, it's changed to tmr morning at 10.30. BTW, yimi moved to her new house alr! It's so weird without her, omg :( okay, i gtg now. I'm gonna make up for not studying bio by studying both bio and math tmr :) AGAIN, I CAN DO IT! :D

-SOPHIA

we'll stand together when the world falls down

thanks to kendra for telling me about this song! Now that i rmb it from step up i think it's damn nice! :D

end of the year :(

HEYYYY. this week is like my last week to slack. I WROTE MY STUDY TIME TABLE ALR! First studying day starts this friday, i'm so worried, after MYE i feel so afraid of studies! Cause yeah i'm not exactly the studious kind. OMG SO WORRIED YET EXCITED :) i must believe in myself! (the typical talk) haha yeah okay.

about ytd, nothing much. School was okay, i don't have anymore project work! :D So i stayed at the library with all the tan kah kee people, haha. I was sitting with regine, claudia and sherwyn, funny. I TOTALLY FELL ASLEEP towards the end, LOL. Last band practice ytd :( sad yet happy i got my time to study! :D CCA SUSPENSION IS ANOTHER REMINDER THAT EXAMS ARE COMING. OKAY JIAYOU SOPHIA LIKE SERIOUSLY!

bye, i'm going to complete homework right now!
-Sophia

it's been awhile.

HELLO.
i went for my first day of tuition today, it was okay..i learnt alot cause i haven't learnt sexual reproduction fully, so now i've learnt beforehand :) I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED.
watching tape now, i better complete my remaining homework after this! YAY! okay not much to say, exams coming up, i'm not that confident, SO I MUST MUST STUDY!

cyaaaaaaaaaaaaa,
-SOPHIA

the little things she needs

idk why i always end up eating this

really really cool

my cam has made me happy and satisfied with it's crystal clear and awesome pics, compared to the terrible ones at the class outing

pearl's random shots

TEEEETH

i'm so spastic, i seriously can't smile without teeth!

it was difficult to capture the hairband

shoes and stuff, it was so awesome to sit there and just slack in the cool wind

really really ugly and failed pic but funny so i shall not delete it

pretty sky :)

more randomings

my universal fun pass :)

the sky was really nice

okay so that was my day out with pearl, a fun yet tiring day. we were at orchard first only then i followed her to vivo as she needed to meet her mom. I wanted to follow her family to resort world for dinner and fireworks too, but i was damn tired so i just went for dinner with me family. Too bad for me, pearl said the fireworks were damn preeeettyyy, i sort of regret not watching it, but then again i have thousands of other chances to go there :) i didn't buy alot of stuff and all and didn't in particular do much besides SHOP, but i had fun!

i'm really not getting into the seriousness of exams am i? Been going out for almost everyday besides band days. This holiday is not a holiday, september holidays suck. My first paper is in 3 weeks, i keep reminding that to myself but somehow it doesn't really prick my conscience or anything. I really haven't been doing my homework, i know that i can complete it, but i can't. I shall finish the last pile of work tmr, despite church. I'm drained today. I woke up at 6.45 for my concert and wasn't given any rest! I'M GONNA BLACK OUT SOON.

OKAY, I'M TIRED, CYA.

-SOPHIA