If you try hard enough, you'll see the world rising up in front of you.

HELLO.
Out with steffi, chloe and yi ching yesterday. I know i was damn late and we watched Eclispe at plaza sing. It's too violent. Idc, scares me when those fight scenes come on, HAHA. And steffi was super annoying shrieking away when Bella and Edward kiss. In my opinion, how can Edward be better than the wolf pack which all are super muscular, and Jacob wows it. Bella=Bad taste

Well okay, going to go back to JYM today like finally. Before there were so many things in between, it's like i haven't been there for so long, i don't know what i've missed and how things are now. It's like, i keep saying i miss JYM, but maybe i really don't. A part of me wants to just stay home and finish my PW designs or something, and move to another church, go to grace's church instead and i get to see rachel and rebecca, like seriously, i don't know why. Maybe it's cus i've been away for too long, i'm afraid that i'm forgotten or smth, or i just lost the fire for God and it gets worse when i'm there, cause i'm so distracted for Christ because of too many issues. Sometimes i feel like it's a waste of time. A mundane routine, you go, you come back, nothing went in and you're not happy. The next week you return wondering what's gonna happen this time, and you still get the same result, and you dream again about the next week. It's really just me, but i can't help it.

OH WHAT SHOULD I DO.

actually, i've told myself. This week will decide it all. Whether i'm really suitable to grow and develop in Christ at there, is the atmosphere correct, does it suit me, is it good for me or a waste of time. Everthing's gonna be settled today. I CAN DO IT :)

i'll cya tmr. i'm watching toy story 3 today after church :)

-Sophia