Standing at the doorstep, knocking the door of a word called "study".

OH HI. shucks saw something that made me just a very little little bit sad. Okay, quite. But not that bad lah. Aiya, i didn't expect you to be like that too, i know it's my fault, i'm mean, but stop harping on it! I've apologised! I didn't say i was innocent!

Kay that was totally nothing. Just heck it. Kay, now it's 9.00 :) GUESS WHAT. i haven't revised chinese! There's not much to revise, just check up on my letter writing format i guess :) HAHAHAH. I'm sort of relieved tmr is a saturday and there's no school on monday too. Yeah, idk lah, but life's not being entirely friendly to me. There's like alot of little distractions and unlucky stuff, like this morning, i woke up like 20 minutes late, wasted my breakfast, thought i didn't bring my phone to school and my maid had to waste time to go back up and find it when it was in my pocket, and when i was about to board the bus, my nametag dropped and lucky this smss girl told me, yeah that's about it. So i didn't let that distract me from my exam today, i was kinda paranoid at first, afraid that the rest of the day would suck, but no, cus i believed, it didn't suck :) In fact, it went on fine.

OKAY, now, i'm trying to overcome any other distraction that comes my way. Yes again, this is how the devil works, creating problems for you when you detest them the most. YEAP. I'M STILL WORKING HARD! :D Well, we all know it's exam time and the time to really focus, so actually i hope Kendra, Jolene, Steffi or maybe even Chloe or Grace who knows the story won't think about what happened before. :) But then again, i doubt so. HAHA, maybe it's only me, somehow a part of me is still thinking of it, but okay lah, the situation's actually not that bad :) I know that somehow it'll bound to be a topic that will be discussed about in our lives again, but now i just want to really minimize it to the fullest :D

oh, and just now Sotong and I were like on some calling spree, calling everyone about my birthday, HAHA. Asking them if they're free or not. But yesh, not all said a "yes" immediately, the best example would be Foo Yuan Ru, who said "i'm busy", "WHAT ARE YOU DOING AH", "i'm just busy lah, i call you back, okay bye bye." Yup, i bet she never called Sotong back, HAHA. Yes, talking to some of them even just for awhile was really nice and somewhat encouraging to my current situation, HAHA.

YEAH OKAY. I guess that's about it. haha parents home! Can't wait to tell them about today's paper! :D
cya then.
-SOPHIAAAA.

"A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight."

sometimes you just get over it

Taylor Swift- Fearless

I love this song! It's really nice, haha i never knew cause i never heard until recently i randomly clicked on youtube, it's actually nicer than her simple slowslow boring love dovey songs. I'm so sad it can't play through the shitty and screwed up music player! Damn that thing! But okay lah it's alright, HAHA.

Yes everyone, ENGLISH EXAM IS TODAY! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! I LASTED THROUGH! After all the retarded notes and abstract reading and rubbish, LAP is no more :) It was okay lah, paper 1 was better done than paper 2 just to say. Yep, i think same goes for about everyone.

Okay today i have to study chinese! Sian just finish exam still must study somemore, kaylah i must just study hard! :D DO YOUR BEST SOPHIA!

kaylah i zao first, eating lunch! :D

-SOPHIA. :)

" Remember, you're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. "

you said you don't understand me, but maybe, just maybe, you never did.

hi, omg, i'm bored.
today we had to clear a whole bunch of rubbish from under our tables, and yeah, i had loads to carry! I'm not some old hag, but my back felt like it was gonna break! And my arms hurt like crazy! xD all thanks to Mrs Shum, who didn't let us use her box, not like she needs it!!! And not like we won't return it!!! aiya. Thanks to the girl who sits beside me ah, so shiok, she only need to carry files. So yes, she lent me her bag! YAY! :D thanks grace, HAHA. but you are still mean.

ANYWAYS, there seems to be less and less to do on the internet. I guess that's a good thing then, then i can focus on my studies! :D today ah, ohyeah i didn't check what it is today. OHYA, ENGLISH! MUST STUDY! (it was supposed to be home econs though, maybe i'll just study that too...)

IT'S TRUE, LAP EXAM IS TMR. how will i do? I don't know!! OMG. and yes, i'm reallyreally focusing on studies alr, i know it was a last minute thing, as in i didn't study so hard before, but now i really want to. I've already forgetton about before, i'm already letting things come to past.
I'VE BEEN STUDYING! i've been checking, revising and packing up all my files, filling in old but blank worksheets, and i've been trying my best.
so really, i desperately want to do really well, and really AWESOME! i hope i can do it! I really hope i can! I don't know what will become of 13th may and who i will really celebrate my birthday with, but i don't want to care about it now! I wanted it to be Steffi, Chloe and Yi Ching but obviously it's not possible anymore. So yes, it's all complicating, that's precisely why i don't want to think so much about it now! EXAMS! i can do it! I MUST BELIEVE IN MYSELF :)

it's just like how i thought i would get 10/20 for the IH test, but no, i got 16, Mrs Shum said that 16 was the highest in class! :D but is it the case for everything? Will i be so lucky again? OKAYOKAY, DON'T THINK SO MUCH.

LAP EXAM TMR. PAPER 1 AND 2. SOPHIA LOO YOU FREAK, YOU CAN DO IT! :D

byebye, oh and ILUVYOUFORREADINGTHIS!
-SOPHIA!

"Change does not necessarily assure progress, but progress implacably requires change. Education is essential to change, for education creates both new wants and the ability to satisfy them."

popcorn, sweet and salted :)

OH HII THERE.
had dance just now, crap maybe it's cus i didn't go previously i had no idea what was the combination! OMG, i was so tired, she made us go up down up down, so tiring! It's just like how tiring it is doing squats in band! And worse! Cus you hands have to move too, legs must move somemore then you have to struggle to spin back up?! WALAO, it was damn tiring. Legs so painful now :( HAHA :D

okayokay, STUDY IH STUDY IH!! DO MATH WORKSHEET DO MATH WORKSHEET!
oh no but i have tape to watch!!! HOWWWW????
study? watch? study and watch? study then watch? watch then study?

HOW LEHH. kaylah, study AND watch :D
sorry!! i haven't watch my cantonese drama in a longlong while!!! :(
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. i love my system of studying! :DD
alright then. i think i should be off now. 8.30 ALR.

ohwell, wish me lots and lots of luck! :D
-STUDYFREAKK.

"He who believes is strong; he who doubts is weak. Strong convictions precede great actions."

stand and appreciate that you're even here, taking in breaths of air

OH HI. well today in sch was not much yet again, but school ended at 1.30 :D
attempted to go to the hub for bubble tea again, but tsk, long queue all over, haha stopped by at coronation instead :D
well, im bored now, omg, i think i'm gonna doze off again, like every other day. HAIX. but i really didn't sleep well last night! :(

IDK LAH. haha i got dance ltr! :D CAN'T WAIT YEAHH.
friday is LAP exam :) today is already wednesday! Though i''m studying, i still feel im not in an exam mood enough, as in, i'm still not serious enough, OHNO. OKAY, today is IH day :)
Brought home my IH file, can't wait to open it up and seriously study!! haha, cus i don't listen to Mrs Shum! She is boring! xD

ohwell. okay lah, i gtg now. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :)
-SophiaLOO,yes i'm the Awesomest! :D

"Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."

in search of an insight to lead a happy and meaningful life

HAHAHAHAHAHAH. this is my brother's new haircut, the one that was cut by my mom! HAHA.
It was early in the morning and, it was his phototaking day, and his hair was too long, so mummy just anyhow cut for him, OMG. I come back home i was like "AIYO". hahahahah. But it's so cute and funny i can't get over it xD

Today was just boring, i have to say. HAHAHAHAH. idk, slept the day away, AGAIN.
omg i really don't have time to read animal farm! It's alr 10?! OHGOSH. i have to finish the book today eh! Dammit, okayokay i go and read now!!!!

CYA!

-SOPHIAAAAA!!!! SCREWED!!!!

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense."

the avenues to life, laughter, smiles and joy

HELLO. today was alright :) better than i expected. I really thought things were going bad, it didn't feel like the day would go smoothly judging from this morning.

Hmm..this is the day i dumped curiousity aside, but i couldn't help but wonder if those distant and silent whispers at the corner were about me, oh well, they probably are. It's okay, i threw away 2 notes that i didn't even bother to read or care abt, i read the first line, felt that surge of sorrow all over again, crumpled up what could've been a fine piece of paper and thrased it down the bin, like it never existed :) if i can do that, then what's so bad about simply seeing other people whisper, we do that all the time don't we :)

Grace said i was "transformed" today, and that if i keep up my hardworking attitude, i'll do well :) Bao Yue was like all '"Seriously, i can't believe Sophia Loo is ____" HAHA, oh and seriously, school was really okay(except for the horribly boring IH and maths!!!!), the science test today was more or less too :) Haha, i'm already learning to let go of the whole thing. Send me more notes that sound something like, "Sophia, WHAT DO YOU WANT?!" and no, the feeling of "i-don't-like-this" implicates the rest of the note, and the whole note goes down the bin, with it's contents unknown forever :)

now what i'm really missing is band. :( aww man. I miss band, i miss the wonderful flute section. If only i could see those freaks tmr, gosh i would be all smiles again!! :D HAHA.

here's smth to share my emotion:

"1 week passed so fast:( prata house, the botak man that "bombed" the piano, cello and auditorium, section talk, NC16 Group, our tears, the senior's last concert all happened last week. how i wished 17th april could be replayed again:)"
-Alice Zendy Wong :), aka Ze Hui & my wonderful junior.

hahahahahaha. OKAY THEN. i guess that's all, i have to read animal farm today is LAP DAY! OMG! I HAVEN'T READ! okayokay, gtg now :) BYEBYE.
-"HAHAHAHAHA" :the thing i die to say everyday :)

we will soar on wings like eagles, we will run and not grow weary

Hello, i guess i'm happier today after going for JYM :)
HAHA, happy birthday Sabrina :) It was funny going for lunch with Faith and Natalie. After that, I had a really meaningful time of worship, great time of eating and playing during sermon with Dora, Sabrina and all.. :D (my bad, i wasn't really listening to pastor, oops?) Sweet cell group time, and fun games! :D

i've forgetton what has happened before alr..HAHA.
Pls, i have a life, i won't think about this and complain about this for the whole weekend.
Okay, today soon i'm going to study maths and science, it's only supposed to be maths, but cus of my science test, i'm gonna study both :)

okay then, i have a certain feeling dinner is coming soon! :D
I'M HUNGRY!
hahaha kay then. BYE!
-Sophia, happy agn.

sick of crying, tired of trying

Thank you,

to grace who been encouraging me and cheering me on with those text messages.

thanks for being there when suddenly it seemed like no one else was.

but a day with my family, made me realise i still have them, and made me realise how fortunate i am already :) and how much joy they bring. It's never enough to just have one sibling. Two fits right and three makes it all overcrowded :) And i love my parents, who were so worried for me when i suddenly bursted out crying, and kept asking me what happened till i told everything.

Oh and thank you to Chloe, who talked to me this morning :) It made the time to come alot better :) And yeah, i don't love you too Chloe, i love you as a friend :)

I'm departing from blogger as much as i can now.

Many people are lazy to blog and like to leave their blogs dead, but idk why i blog everyday, and now it's like almost twice a day xD

HAHAH, I KNOW RIGHT. but since i'm unhappy, talking about it will just make it worse right? I'll blog the day i'm happy again :)

bye blogger, it'll be weird to not have you around. (but i have this feeling i'll miss you and i'll start talking to you again)

ohgosh!!! I studied a little math, cus i came back late, but at least it's smth! :) Tmr, is maths day agn, and i'm meeting Faith for lunch, then we'll go to JYM together :) I wanna post agn tmr, to signify that i'm happy, i hope i can really do it.

byebye.

-ChildofGod.

anyway, it's just back to the beginning,

Hi. i was really confused last night. Cause i dont know the details, but i know who they're talking about, yeah it's me. I dont know, but some things have got to happen anyway. It's alright lah. Is this how the devil works, making you so incredibly happy, then just tearing you down the next moment, it was just so mean of him. I apologise Steffi, i'm really sorry. I'll tell you sorry now kay :) No __ to represent someone or anything. Straight and direct. But okay, just treat it like i've never known you guys, it's my first day of sch this monday, you guys have known since pri school, been good friends since then, nth happened in between :)

I'm not afraid to accept what has happened, i know i'm still torn up and broken, but there's a time for tears, and it's alr over.

and okay, for YOU. Don't call me whatever, you've never been a good friend yourself, all this while. If someone is fake, you're the top of the list. I'm just sorry to Steffi, whom i really pledged myself to be good friends with and to stop saying bad things about, cause i've realised i've been mean, and i dont like the mean sophia, she sucks. But it just so happens when i really wanted to abandon my bad side, and to just encourage my friend and love her and be awesome friends with her, she found out about what happened before. And i apologise for that Steffi, i know you're disppointed, you don't have to be friends with me if you want to, i alr told you that i'm not gonna try to defend myself about this, but trust that i wasn't such a B all this while. I changed when i found out what a great friend you were, how encouraging you were to me when i told you about Kendra and Jolene. I wanted to be the same friend to you, and to stop lying and gossiping. I wanted to put aside the awful past that you found out. I'm sorry to Steffi, she has every right to hang back out with you guys. I've done what i could to stop saying bad things abt her, but up till now, you're still the same aren't you?

I can't help but wonder who am i gonna talk to in school now? When asked of who are my bestest friends in school, what's there to respond? After the exams, who am i gonna celebrate my birthday with? Am i just gonna go home and watch my tv and play my computer? Is what i originally planned for my birthday and my holidays all ruined? I couldn't help but think of all these. AHHH. it's just really really horrible.

And last night was the worst. I kept crying when i saw what they wrote about me, i know they hate me and all but it was just so sarcarstic but those words were just so hurtful. Why must they think that way, when i try to be friendly and i tried to help. oh my goodness, i cried till i was so tired, i was so lost and downcasted, that i simply wanted to cry myself to sleep you know?! I can't imagine all the bad words Kendra would be saying when she sees this. I think she might not see it, but when she does, i can imagine how she would be contradicting everything i say. Putting up a debate within herself, and the next thing she'll do would be to call Jolene, and the two of them would bitch about how irritating i am, how artificial and all. Then when they go to school, they'll tell Steffi, they'll tell Zan, they'll talk about it for the whole day, AHHH I CANT IMAGINE. I may be too sensitive, but that's not impossible,and ughh i dont care. I really don't care. Talk then, read this and fire up you B. You never cared about me did you, if you're ignoring me out of your life, i don't have a choice but to follow suit. I said at the end of the day i still loved you, but no, not anymore. i don't say vulgarities, even if i just show signs, but now, FUCK OFF BITCH. Go and hunt back the life that ran away from your deceitful heart.

Yeah, i'm ego like that. I SUCK. I'm judging you. so what, SUE ME.

Okay, i crossed that out instead of just erasing it, because i wanted to show you what i originally wanted to say. But, i was reminded of Jesus, who died for our sins, so that we'll stop being sinners, stop doing bad, and that would have just broke His heart, don't you think? I dont know why i even typed all those. Maybe i'm really that mean? If i am, why do i pray for? Why do i even want to do quiet time? What's the church?

I'M TALKING TOO MUCH. JUST CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS SOPHIA.

and i will stop here. I've said enough. I don't to think of this ever again. I'll start afresh on monday, new friends, new life, new attitude. The devil's just trying to dsitract me from my studies, but because of that, i promised i'll work even harder. I didn't forget what i told myself, and what i promised my dear friend Grace, the things i wrote in my notebok are still there and ready anytime for me to follow :)

cya then. it's maths day, HAHA
-Sophia

One step at a time

SUCCESS! SPENT 1H30MINS ON REVIEWING MY CHEMISTRY NOTES!

: different states of matter, atoms and molecule & light :D

5 MINS BREAK IN BETWEEN ON COM :) ONLY 5 MINUTES!

I FEEL SUPER DUPER ACCOMPLISHED :)

Oh, and i did bonus! I went to file up my bio worksheets! I took so long to dig out everything! HAHA, yeah i did filing while watching cantonese drama xD But hey, it's just filing! You don't need to think so much you know! I FEEL REALLY PROUD.

I was deciding whether i should blog about this, and yes, i couldnt resist temptation! I am really very happy! But i hope i'll have the stamina to carry this on..tmr is maths day :( OHNO.
okayokay, you can do it Sophia! You did it today! You'll keep it up! :D

THANKYOU LORD FOR GIVING ME STRENGTH :)
-SOPHIA!

the final sprint

OH HII. School was random today i guess.
Ughh home econs, haha made almond puff which turned out okay to our surpirse :) Yeah, but i thought it was actually gonna be quite screwed up, haha no confidence xD

Had Etch programme, idk why it even exists but wdv, then after school i stayed back for some jewelry workshop, with Bao Yue, oh someone remind me why i even bothered to go. It was horribly boring xD And a waste of time, oh gosh. But okay, nvm, i must cherish the time now to study!

Okayokay today in class, Grace helped me to make a resolution to studyandstudy! I wrote it all down on my notebook, which day to study what. So today is science day :) I brought home my science file, i reallyreally hope i can bring myself to really open it and study. Not just flip and flip. Then again, it'll be a big step if i can even open my file! HAHA.

So this is my studying schedule till the last day of exam, i hope i'll really follow it :)
: today/fri, 23 april- study science (file)
sat, 24 april- study maths
sun, 25 april- study maths
mon, 26 april- study LAP (read animal farm)
tues, 27 april- study LAP (read animal farm)
wed, 28 april- study IH (file)
thurs, 29 april- study home econs
fri, 30 april- LAP PAPER 1,2- study chinese
sat, 1 may- study science
sun, 2 may- study 1H
mon, 3 may- study chinese
tues, 4 may- MT PAPER 1,2- study maths
wed, 5 may- study science
thurs, 6 may- study IH
fri, 7 may- IH PAPER- study maths
sat, 8 may- BREAK :)
sun, 9 may- study maths
mon, 10 may- Anneka's birthday- MATHEMATICS PAPER 2- study science
tues, 11 may- SCIENCE PAPER- study home econs
wed, 12 may- HOME ECONOMICS PAPER- study maths
thurs, 13 may- MATHEMATICS PAPER 1- exam end ~ :)
fri, 14 may- MY BLESSED BIRTHDAY :D- marking day

exam dates are highlighted in red*
Countdown: 20 more days and i'm done :) Just last it through and work hard Sophia!
YOU CAN DO IT! :D

i'm really looking forward to getting my exams done and over with. I really wanna work hard, pls work hard Sophia, pls work very very hard!!!
I can't wait for my birthday and other people's birthday and i can't wait for the june holidays when i've started planning out things with my friends :) OH PLEASE. I CAN'T WAIT.

Good results are really the best thing that would make my entire holiday much more blissful :)

Also, now is the time to grow closer to God, to learn to trust Him, leave it to His will, get strength from the scripture to work hard, and really pray hard. It's not the time to drift away from the Lord, i know it.

Okay here goes. I'm gonna study science. Wish me luck then :)
LOVE YOU.
-SophiaLooHuiYi, so it will say on my report card.

Here we go again.

there you go. That's the one and only flute section i've been missing so much :( Sang Ah blurring at the side again..HAHA :D That snoopy. Hehe, can you spot the two who are gonna be out of the picture soon? :( Sherry and Natasha, guess urself lah.

Yet another day without band. It felt weird sleeping the day away :(

But i tell you smth, my siblings, went to universel studios again! And i didnt go, i was freaking too tired, i was about to doze off, no strength to scream on rides and scurry around in the sun :( I missed my chance to have fun again! AIYA. Took dinner alr lah. I have nothing to do now. I'm really really worried about my STUPIDSTUPID exams! ohgoshh. I'm like so worried but sooooo horribly lazy to really get up and search my bag for homework. OMG. I'm really very lazy. What's there to do.

Steffi, my dear friend, cried today because of something, okay actually more like someone xD I tried to encourage her by passing her a note :) HAHA, she and chloe wrote back, chloe ah, you are super funny eh! HAHAHAHA. I kept it in my notebook alr with all my other notes, omg my notebook is spammed with post-its and fullscap! HAHA. Okay then, i'm starting to slowly plan out my birthday celebrations :D But before that, i STILL keep forgetting about exams.

OH SOMEONE REMIND ME, WORK BEFORE PLAY! :(

Alright i have not much to say about today now. Yeah okay, cya then :)

-Sophia, must study!

my coolest move

HELLOOOOO.
i just came back from dance :) YAY! Hip hop i missed you to the ends of the earth :) But only shanice and I today, well shanice havent been for dance in a long time too. My bff, all the best for your O level practicals tmr! I'll pray for you! :D
Oh and i had muscle ache during crutches, all thanks to my 4 stations, i emphasize on the FOUR.

Today was actually quite fun. Idk, things were just really alright. HAHAHA, regine and I doing okay for music :) Hahaha ms pang got hooked on to our song, she kept singing it whenever she heard it, hopefully we'll get a good grade huh? Haha, awesome, and i simply love danielle and bao yue's piece, WEDDING DRESS! Gosh i listen till i wanna cry sia. So nice, with flute and all :) Damn, i'm so jealous. HAHA. But then again, regine and I really like our piece too :D

It was great sitting next to Chloe during ACE, missed her alot. Sadly, Yi Ching wasn't there, she has like competition :( I haven't talked to Chloe for so much in a long time. Well, i told her, stuff too, something i've been telling way too many people, i shall stop it, even Bao Yue knows.

I can't wait to celebrate my birthday with all my friends :) But thinking ahead makes me skip the thought of exams, which is before my birthday. Ohwell, studies before play eh? I must work hard! Esp. on maths and home econs. LOL home econs, why must there be such a subject, and there's even an exam on it! UGHHHHH. Then followed by, chinese, science, IH then LAP. I'm not particularly good in anything, now how sucky is that. :( That's why i must study! And how sucky is that too..my room is clearly not a study area. Why can't my siblings F out of my room. Sorry i have to say that, i really cant stand them hanging out in my room all the time, it's not their club and playground you know?!

WHATEVER. i have to discuss my birthday celebration with all my besties :) Check the times they're free, call them up, find out what they wanna do, when, where, how. Oh gosh, it's not even May and i'm obsessing over my birthday. Hmm it's that what you call ego? Well, it's my birthday after all..HAHA.

well then, i guess i shall go and shower, i'm still sweatyandsweating!
ughhhhhh. bye then. another day short of band tmr :( I won't be used to it.
-mmusttt....stttuuuuudddyyyyyyyy.

an enchanting smile, bright and again, beautiful

I MISS YOU GUYS, PEARL, SOTONG, ANNEKA, HOI TING, YUAN RU, TRACY, MIN FAY, YING WEI, WAN QING, ALL THE RGPS PEEPS. I MISS YOU GUYS, SHANICE, REN MAE, RACHEL, REBECCA, EMILY, AND THE FC GANG. I MISS YOU GUYS, CHLOE AND YI CHING.

:(

-Sophia, again.

Strut down these streets

Hello, i felt horribly empty without having to stay back for band.
I didnt even know there was no band, i brought my band file to school! xD HAIX. I miss band. Saw Sherry today during reccess, she just finished her 2.4km, ahhh i wanted to cry. Btw, i did my 5 stations today, all but Sit and reach, the only one i can do well. :( OMG. SO SAD. HAHA. i suck at all the other 4 stations, sit-ups, pull-ups, standing broad jump and shuttle run :( SIAN DIAO.

okay, im watching a new show after my other show ended. It's not that good. DUHHHH.
Tmr, is wednesday. FINALLY, i can go for dance! I haven't been going for hip hop in like 2,3 weeks alr :( Shanice too, it's cus of all my performances. Well, i still am really downcasted cus of band and all my seniors. I can't get over it, but i dont really wish too..they'll be graduating :( I can't imagine band practices without them. Natasha, Sherry, why must you guys be so awesome? :( Haix.

I'M SO SAD.

OKAY. I've been trying to drift apart from ahem and ahem recently. Because i really dont like how they always walk off without me. I'm starting to notice, maybe they're not the right bunch of friends for me. Do this and that without me, i don't see a reason why i must hang around with them all the time when they always heck me. I know they've known each other for a really really long time. But i can't help but feel i'm some follower. Would they guess that one day i may not catch up with them for reccess..i may not turn around for group work all the time and say "eh, we do together kay." I just dont feel i'm important to them as a friend. It's always about their issues, their life, their everything. Every convo is related to them. They're in the middle, she's in the middle. I'm sick, "okay, get well soon ah" like that and oh its back to them. And actually, i think ahem is okay, you guys hate her, but too bad, i think she's perfectly fine. Always so emo, always so angry, so pissed, so emotional, it's hard to get along. It really wasn't what i had in mind :( I'm not angry or anything, i'm not gonna throw thantrums, i'm ju disppointed. But i don't intend to break ties with you. You know you always ignore me, but you don't think you're wrong or you dont feel bad or anything. For you it's just like, "HAHA, sorry lorh" But it impacted me so much. It's okay, i've been used to this since this whole year, i still love you guys. Sorry kay, if i'm been avoiding you somehow, and hanging out with other people. Not like it really makes a difference to you.You can get on with your awesome lives without me. Worry about your issues again. Like you said yourself, "Who cares?" No one cares. But maybe, I shall start finding people who do :)

cya then :)
-SOPHIA.

a fistful of stances

-A Fistful Of Stances

OH.MY.GOODNESS.GRACIOUS. this is the best show ever. It's not just about kungfu, don't look at the poster and judge. This show is so awesome. It's really exciting, passinate, touching and such a joy to watch. It's so hard to keep my eyes off the screen once the theme song plays, i absolutely love this show. And i'm absolutely gonna miss it after it's beautiful ending. I love the ending alot alot. Just watched it, the last 3 episodes of the show were stunning. I kept crying from beginning even to the end, just cry, stop, then aiyo, cry again xD I can't stop thinking about it, no mood for facebook or whatsoever, so i decided to blog about it :) LOVE EVERTHING ABOUT THIS SHOW. CANTONESE DRAMA PAWNS :D

cya :)

-SOPHIALOO.

amazing grace

You guys are sooo lucky you could go to Universel Studios last saturday while i was performing my butt off. OH GOSH. YOU ARE ULTRA LUCKY.

Hello, today we had a freaking home econs test.

Don't know anything, ughhh i really cant stand home econs! xD I think it's so hard and i know nothing, seriously, i cant even remember SNDG properly. YEAH OKAY. DONT LAUGH. IM NOT SOME CHEF KAY.

LOL. I realise, my birthday is gonna come soon, WHEN I SAY MAY YOU SAY 14! :D may 14th, my birthday, rmb it. It's gonna be good for you :) alright, i'm figuring out what to do, i have manymany days to celebrate cus my exams end on 13th may, can celebrate with sec friends after school then i have: friday(marking day/actual birthday), saturday and sunday is next followed by a monday which is also a marking day. In total i have 5 days to celebrate with everyone :) and before that, there's still Anneka's birthday, on the 10th :)

WOW, BIRTHDAYS COME TOO QUICKLY. AGREE?

kay then, last disc of the cantonese show im so crazy about now!

My sister is finishing it up, gonna be my turn! xD WISH ME LUCK FOR A WONDERFUL ENDING :D

-cantonesedramequeen.

When you free the tears without needing to look for a hug.

Grace concert is over :( and dont mistaken the sad face, its not because i like grace concert and i'm sad it's over. In fact, I HATE YOU GRACE CONCERT. You made yourself the lightning between the sec4/5 and the rest of the band. Now because of you, the sec/5s are leaving us! SHERRY AND NATASHA! :( HOW I'M GONNA FREAKING MISS YOU GUYS.

Omg today is really Sherry and Natasha's last concert with all of us. The whole of flute section was super sad today. All(except nicole!) CRIED. Esp Zehui and Sang Ah, it's odd, they've only been with us for 4months but, they cried the most. That proves how great this section is, and how much different it would be without our precious seniors! :(

ohmann. Many of us cried while we were simply talking in a group. IDK WHY. I didn't really cry at first, then after awhile i really thought of how sad it would be without them, and yeah okay i cried. FOR AWHILE ONLY. Then okay, stopped crying, rested awhile before our final grace concert slot. All of us, i could tell were really emotional when playing the 2 songs-Friends For Life, Canto. It was different from the previous slots. Cause it was the last :(

Went back to the band room, where Jing Ying and Eunice stood in front of us for the last time, talked to us for the last time as being the Band Major and Drum Major. I CRIED AGAIN. HORRIBLE. When i saw Jing Ying cry during their last band cheer, couldnt help but let out my tears further. During this time, there were alot of red eyes and wet faces, and all of us needed to give and take a hug somehow. The whole situation was so sad, but i just wont let go of it.

Last part. Had another section talk after everyone was dismissed. This time, we went a round to speak, just to say whatever we feel :) I said that i really like our section, and that it's really special to me :) I really meant that. I dont know how different it would be, not preparing a seat for two more people, and not seeing the same comittee, not hearing the same voices shouting at us seems too weird, IDK, i'm just really sad. YEAH. I just wanna let my dear graduating seniors know that I WILL MISS YOU GUYS :(

OKAY I'M DONE :) I CAME BACK LATE TODAY, REALLY TIRED, BUT I STILL WANT TO BLOG BECAUSE I REALLY HAVE TO SHARE THIS. IT'S JUST BEEN SUCH A UNFORGETTABLE DAY :)

THANKYOU SEC 4 AND 5s FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT PART OF THIS BAND. :D
cya.
-bandmember, misses you guys.

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HEY THERE. GRACE CONCERT STARTS TMR :)
okay i have no idea whathell is that smiley face doing there. It's nothing compared to limelight. Dont kid me, seriously. Well, grace concert is friday-saturday :) I sort of am excited? I guess, i cant not be excited at all. Yeah just get it over and done with lah.

hmm i dont know what to say. School was okay. Im just a bit lost. I told Grace manymany points like one or two days ago...i was venting and i kept saying so much stuff, i dont regret it, it's just a point i wanna make, some stuff that i dont like, issues i'm not happy with, certain people im disappointed by, a confusing emotion. But okay, i dont intend to do anything about it. Just continue on, not gonna take any action, what can i do anyway. Just spread out more, speak out of the box, don't stick around, try something else :)

yeah okay. Hardly anyone reading this will know what i'm talking about. It's okay, you dont have to, if you dont know, dont have a clue, then it probably doesnt concern you.

CYAWORLD. GRACETMR.
-sophiaTHEAWESOMEST.

Dont say i told you so.

HEY THERE. UPDATES ON THESE FEW DAYS :D

sunday/monday:
nothing much. JYM was okay...monday is was back to school all over again. And i wasted my free day after school at home sleeping. OHGOSHH. HOW HORRIBLE. but yeah, then i went out for dinner with my family, I STILL RMB! :) YAY!

tuesday:
2.4!!! ahhhh!! Was damn scared, brought a freaking large 1.15 litre water bottle. Brought my running shoes...and yeah. But i didnt run that fast/slow. About the same as last year. HAHA NOT SAYING MY TIMING! But i completed faster than mom and sis (: that's all you need to know. And after school i stayed back for like 15min to finish my retarded chinese compo, not even a page long, idk why we even had to do it. It's not like we're gonna win the compo competition or anything, or we want to! UGHHH. BUT TUESDAY NO BAND! :) so i got home really early, changed, ate, showered, watch tv for half an hour, out the door again!

Hahahah cus i had to go for gabrielle's talent show! :D Met up with sam first at the rgps bus stop, after all she's in njc, can just walk there xD Then took bus to king albert park, met up with sarah, joel and john. Shared two cheese burgers with sam it was so stupid, HAHA. Might as well we both buy one burger...lol so funny. Then drove to pick up deborah, who really wore a dress, HAHA. Okay then, went to paya lebar methodist girls alr to watch Gabrielle! :D and the rest which i didnt even know at first was coming came from there.

Some contestants were really really good, some just..uhh not so good..HAHA. But of course Gab was good! :D all voted for her. But she didnt win lah. Haha it was okay, it was still a great performance! :D Then went for dinner, which i didnt plan for though, just wdv anyhow. Ate Yoshinoya, and once again, driven back to my home sweet hhome. IT WAS ALR 1O BY THEN. OH GOODNESS. HAHAHAHAH.

wednesday/today!:
Had yet another boring school day. Nth much except that music me and regine finished up to everything! Except drum beats :) I think we rock, even though our piece is short. LOVE YA REGINE. AND THEN: Full dress rehearsals for GRACE concert. Wasnt that excited, except for the fact i could leave at 12.30pm :D Went for lunch first, with my section, again :) Then reported to the band room. The whole thing was quite boring lah, i think the only part i really bothered was the announcements of the new committee! HAHA OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR SO MANY PEOPLE! :D

The best position is Rachel Wong Ting Ting! Our new band major! HAHA out of so many roles, she was the band major..really really happy for her. And as expected, Joey is student conductor and Section Leader! AHH YAY! :D WELL DONE. Shanny is committee too! Librarian! :) haha flute section so many comm members now :) Im so glad, see i told you flute secition rocks. Oh and MOM IS QM! eww at the QM part, but yay at the comm part! Hmmm, cant touch other people's instruments in front of jolene then, haix. MOM AH, why must you be QM..now cant let Kendra play my flute in front of youu! HAHA. lols. But yay ___ is not in the comm. We were pretty sure she would be like the librarian or smth, but nope. She has no position at all :)

Yeappp i guess these days have been alright.
I cant believe i bothered to blog about everything. Must cut down next time..haha.
Yeah, so thanks for reading my long long update( if you really read, how i know if skip to the end huh)
HAHA.

okay then. cya world. GRACE CONCERT: 16TH/17TH APRIL (not much looking forward to it, but hey, it holds cca points! xD )
-SOPHIAAAAAAA.

Bright Like The Sun

hellloooooo.
just showered, went for JYM just now :) aww i missed the people there, ever since last week when i was still dead sick. OH WELL. IM BETTER NOW.

Isabel, this girl from my group joined our dg today, hmm didnt even know she was our age, HAHA. Had worship, sermon by ivan, i copied notes for sabrina, out of boredom. Then cell group time we played games for so long, HAHA. We ended our discussionat like 4.30, LOL. But we kept playing failed games, lols. Oh and gabrielle is taking part in her sch talent show, we're gonna support her! :) Just got tickets from her today :) cant wait.

OKAY, tmr is school again. Is there band? Oh gosh, i dont know. UGHH SERIOUSLY WHAT'S THE SCHEDULE?! xD Okay then, exams are coming..i needa work hard! It's time! AHAHA. But i tell myself that all the time, i still dont want to do my work! Not that there's alot of work, mmm sec 2 i still slack i feel. Well, sec 3 is confirm gonna be different, haha.

okay then, time to go.
i wanna watch videos! Any video!
-SOPHIA.

the beautiful days

HELLLLOOOO. IT'S SATURDAY. NO BAND! :D
but idk for some reason i feel kinda left out without going for band, ohwell, it's good that we can rest well today :) haix i still cant believe limelight is over. I MISS LIMELIGHT. I think many of us do.

HAHAHAH. well, i think my parents are going to bring all of us out ltr.
Can't wait to spend some time with them. It's been awhile since i've been practicing till the ends of the earth for limelight :) Mrs Tan was so nice yesterday, she gave all the band members the happy postcard. She says cause we worked hard and did a great job :) I felt really good, i think she's really nice. Haha, actually i thought she was gonna scold Jolene and I for poning school the day after limelight or smth. LOL.

well nvm. I think limelight really impacted me. And i thank God for letting me perform! For letting my whole section perform together! :D It's been so great! Kendra Tan, though you only played two songs, i'm sure it was a great experience for you too! Now it's SYF that we can work together for :) WE CAN DO IT!

nahhh actually there's still GRACE CONCERT. haha but we didnt really care about our grace concert, ohwell. It's 16th and 17th of april. This month, so there's still some band before cca suspension. I'm gonna miss band :(

haha okayokay i gtg now.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
-SOPHIALOO.

Taken Aback.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARL!

hey there!! it's your birthday today! All the best this day kay. Dont let it be average, be happy and cheery! Well really miss those times when we could all play audition and conference on the phone while we play till we get pissed by sotong or something, or until i say i'm very sleepy when its only 11 plus, especially during the holidays! :D miss those times in raffles, always buying the same drink, meeting in the same place during reccess, waiting for each other after school, having lots of fun..being awesome best friends. HMM. Now we're in different schools and we have so many many different friends, but hey, i'm still your best friend kay :) so yeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

hello people, it's pearl's birthday today.

Happy birthday to that girl....haha.

I didnt go to school today, came back from LIMELIGHT really late last night :)

but it was cool, dont really want to say much actually. It's just, ytd was so fun, so exciting, so brilliant and so awesome!! :D

LOVE FLUTE SECTION!: Sherry, Natasha, Joey, Nicole, Cassandra, Rachel, Shanny, Ze Hui and Sang ah! :D

well. that concludes it.

CYA DUDES.

-"limelight!!!"

I've been in the LIMELIGHT :D

7TH APRIL- A SUPER AWESOME DAY.

I PROCLAIM I LOVE FLUTE SECTION! :DD

we're the greatest!

Get Up And Shake The Glitter Off Your Clothes, Now

hello.
today felt so wasted.
i didnt go to school :( so yeah i really didnt collect my limelight tickets. sorry jo, i know yours is with me...tmr :) tmr im going back to sch, regardless if i recover full. and sorry regine, i was supposed to stay back with you to finish up music :(

let's talk about this morning:
i couldnt get up. it was like every time i tried to get up, some mysterious force pulled me back down or something, it was horrible. I was soooo achy, so dizzy. After a long time, i got up, really really slowly, and walked to the opposite room, dont know why, plopped down to yet another bed again. Had a really bad headache. Popo kept saying "see doctor lah...so doctor lah..come i bring you" tsk. So i went to the toilet. It was so scary, i sat down at the toilet bowl, when i got up, i was literally blinded by stars for like a whole minute. I tried to walk out, still blinded, then fell down onto the matress, omg. Like i fainted or something. Popo came rushing in, said the same thing, that she was going to take me to the doctor. She did.

Called gong gi, he drove us to the clinic, Uncle Jit's clinic lah. Cus we were related, we went in shortly after the current patient :) It rocks not having to wait long, but yeah there was some guilt. Alright, Uncle Jit said i still had a little fever, i explained to him everything, he said i had low blood sugar, it was so stupid, i felt like a loser, the kind in shows that faint when they have low blood sugar. Swollen glans and dont know what others. He ticked out all my symptoms, the dizziness, the headaches, the feeling like i was gonna throw up. Cool.

Gong gi and popo's turn, Uncle Jit just decided to take a look at the two elderly too. And then prescribed required medicine for all of us then. Waited real long for all the damn medicine. Turns out i have like dont know how many different kinds of medicine, im sick of trying to swallow tablets with water. Im sick of water, i have to say, i've had enough of water, why won't i get better. After i got my medicine, i was drove to some hawker centre to eat food. I love my grandparents, one went off to get me a sweet drink, the other went to buy food. I sat there alone, so happy i have them even though my parents are overseas :)

well, im not that bad now. i just took a nap and took my medicine again, which required yet a hell of water. I'm getting well soon :) Dont worrry then, no matter what, i'm just going to school tmr, it doesnt matter. It's our last band practice. I'm sorry i made my mom who is overseas worry so much about me today, and i know she feels bad she couldnt help me, but its okay :)

Wednesday-7th April 7.30pm-9.30pm, i'll put up a great performance for everybody, 2 hours of fun, glamour, prestige and awesomeness, this trouble and worry wont be for nothing :D

alright. Maid bugging me to shower, i'll say it again. I sort of hate her. xP
bye then.
-Sophia

I wanna chill out

HELLO. APPRECIATE ME, I'M BLOGGING.
i hate this, i slept in the cold cold air con room at 37.4. I woke up and was damn warm, and was back to 38.2 all over again. All my panadol, WASTED!

OMG LAHH. SOMEONE HELP ME. PLEASE.
limelight! Tmr is the ticket collection alr, i have to be there :( If not no one is gonna be there be to watch me! SIGHHH. THIS SUCKS. I'm gonna say it again, this seriously sucks. UGHH. I missed easter service today cause i woke up and felt horrible.

I took the day away from jym, hoping to recover :( But nooooooooooo.
oh crap lah. why must this happen. SIAN DIAO. I'M GONNA GO.

I'M HUNGRY :(
-CRAPSICK.

DEAD, I HOPE I'LL NEVER BE GONE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU NOOB...though it's not officail, ohwell.

(i'll get you your present soon!)

Hey there, i celebrated Pearl's birthday yesterday, with her family. I still think i was damn extra, but nvm it was fun i guess :) Swam and bbqued. But i was like proclaiming i was sick all the way, which in fact i freaking am. Burning at 38.smth now..LIMELIGHT, DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND :( PLEASE OH PLEASE :(

there was band today, and i didnt go, for the first time in my life, i really wanted to go for band without any complains, without any sleepiness, without any grudge! FULL OF JOY, BUT I COULDNT. WHY NOT? :( i guess this is fate? LOL LOL LOL.I MUST GET WELL! And nicole too, still coughing and super unwell, seriously, she really needs to perform for limelight, she's a great player and she can play the piccolo! :)

okay then, pray for me whoever. I really need to get well.
-FANATIC.

the times when you need to run, not knowing when you'll decide to turn back.

hmmmm such fun times seem to come less and less. i wonder why. it's like you forget how it used to happen everyday.

HEY THERE. kendra didnt audition today after all. ohhwell. Other than that, i had alot fun laughing with Sang Ah, too bad Ze Hui wasnt here today, fever! GET WELL WONG ZE HUI AND NICOLE TAN! FLUTE SECTION CALLS FOR YOU GUYS! :D

alright then, so pearl celebrating her bdae tmr.

problem#1: DIDNT BUY A PRESENT

problem#2: DONT KNOW WHAT TO WHERE

problem#3: SUCK AT SWIMMING LIKE HOW AHEM.

problem#4: I WANNA SLEEP TILL ONE, BUT NOPE.

problem#5: I HATE MY SIBLINGS

problem#6: THEY SUCK

problem#7: IF I CONTINUE I'LL GET OFF TOPIC.

problem#8: I AM GONNA STOP NOW xD

alright then, kay they're actually not proper problems, ahwellls....HAHAHAH.
Just leveled in maple, AGAIN. Level 44 now! :D WOOHOO!
lolified. hope tmr will be a fun for pearl then :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE NOOB :)

okay, i think you where this is going.
bye!
-NOOB.